to you..

hi, today 8th november 2010,
kita dinner, dan lanjut seperti biasa..
i dont know what's wrong..
rasanya begini salah sekali..
never wanted to hurt you.. never..
please don't hate me..
i love you and it is true..
i dont wanna do this to you
please i dont wanna cry anymore, it hurts like hell..
i cant stop it.. oh noo...
i hope, thou we are not in that kind of state anymore..
please don't hate me.. that's all..

i know things won't be the same anymore..
but is there any chance we can be friend again ?
like the first time we met ?

i am simply broken into pieces
how pity i am.. oh my god!
i cant hold it..
it just can't stop flowing from my eyes,

i thank you for still loving me until today, and i dont know what's next..
i thank you for all of your kindness
i thank you for all of you cares to me
i thank you for everything you've gave me, love, joy.. everything..

i never wanted to hurt you from the start..

i wish you all the best, you deserves someone better than me,

am just don't know what to do,
and i did stupid thing, and now i'm hell full of regrets, and things won't be the same anymore, and my sorry wont do anything for you.. thou no matter how much ive told you..

good night..

family

2nd October 2010 2.21am

To all parents in
this world, go and have no children at all, rather than you choose to have only one.. Poor that child, just like me, and so for you who have brothers and sisters, lucky you, be thankful and grateful, i envies you..

and so,

Mornight

Stupid me..

today 26th sept 10, sunday early morning 12.09am
its been so long since the last time i updated this blog..
well..

secara tadi kluar ma puz ma desc crita panjang lebar..
bb ku di sita puz.. hahaha go get one darla.. i know you want it badly now.. hahaha
shared a lot of story with both of them.. and it was fun :)

so, anyway..
after back from hk, there is a lil bit problem between us..
i dont know whats in your mind..
kalau soal klub bola fave mu, mao ampe jam brapa juga lu tunggu..
saya telat dikit udah di tinggal "good night"
well, i think sooner or later we need to end this stupid relationship..
its not a healthy one.. you always think that i have no feeling to you..
well as what you always think, do as what you want..
its quite tiring to arguing with you..
i hate it thought..

as far as we go, its a lie if i said i didn't have any feelings for you..
what's the different between like or love ?
tell me..
is it stupid to fall in love ?

love you, yet this heart already fallen into pieces, thank you :)

some said only fools that fall in love..
so i'm one of those fools ? is it ?
who cares ?
no one..
i don't know whether im the one that acted too childish or whatsoever..
but,
will you always be there when i need you..
...
i do hope so..
its been a hard time for me lately..
=)

so far.. its been months since we traps in this relationship that don't know where it will lead us..
as a man.. i can say that you are quite patient with me.. and i really do appreciate it..
thank for keep reminding me that you still love me, thou you never say it lately..

thank you for ferdian christian sentani who already been so kind to me..
accompany me almost every single night shares a lot of story with me..
make me laugh all the time, thou no matter what happened here..
thank you for being such a good cyber friend for me
thank you for helping me stop this water that falling down from my eyes by your stupid jokes
that always works really great just like a magic ♥
you are always there when i need someone to talk with ( sounds like ghost *.* :p )
i hope that i have a big brother just like you
thank you so much..
for everything..
:)
:D
;)
:p

so...
as what you said tonight beibi..
good night..

Stupid Love Story

yes, hello..
last night, i'm having fun with puz, hardy, calvin, zealous, sebastian and WL.. we are
having so much fun, hahahaha..
ok, skip..

today is Wednesday, so it means, Friday is our last day of examinations..
then, after dat, we are going to have our holiday, till October if im not mistaken.

***

it's just matter of time until i break your heart and mine
i hate it
but i think, i will.. one day
i'm sorry for today
thank you for loving me
seems hard to say goodbye
but, why we need to say goodbye while we can say, see you ?
people are complicated, but love is much more complicated..

sleep tight dear, sleep tight =)

***

Zombie Morning!!

hey ho!!
aw!!
i'm as dead as a zombie!
say what? yes, im looks like a dummy! =.="
i went to bed at 6.am this morning!
why ?!
because...
had a midnight phone call till 3am,
then can't sleep, open my notebook!
then, updating my rusty blog, blog walking, checking on fb, twitter, etc!
then at 5 something, i move to the floor, trying to wrap that gift..
mr.d wanna give it to a "Girl"
havent finished wrapping that thing yet.. so i decided to continue it now, but seems so zombie right now, can do nothing..
woke up at 8.30am.. can't join the computer lesson! so i went somewhere else, trying to get some sleep, and end up with failed.. so try to get some coffee, and the coffee gave no effect at all, so...
and that guy ignores me! wth ?!
what's wrong ? idk.. just let it flow..
its 10.52am now, well, think g2g.. adios..

love me,
zombie!

Midnight going to Dawn

hi, its 3.04am
i've ended my midnight phone call

and yet i can't sleep
he must be off to his bed rite now..
well,
yes, i miss you
and yes, i think i love you, is it really love ?
not so sure..
sorry =)
it's just, i don't know where will i anchor this relationship
yes, i know i love you
but
i'm not ready for "broken heart"
yes, im not an optimistic

it's pouring outside, is it ? or it's just the sounds of the air-con or the fan
who knows ?

i have a computer class this morning, at 8.30am till 10.15am
feels like i wanna skip that class, so lazy
prefer mandarin class though..
studying visual basic is really brain consuming..
its easy if you keep practicing everyday and you are able to remember the formulas
but, too many that i've failed my 1st VB exam =.="
don't know why, its so difficult
from 5 questions, i am only able to do two perfectly, and 2 other half
walawe =.="
such a nightmare =.="

well, i think g2g to bed now..
its 3.13am now... panda's eyes liao lar tomorrow, aw!!

good night :)
ops, good morning XD
adioss

ps : thanks for you cares and loves =)

i love you :)

AHA!! VOILA :D
what day is today ? june 20..
its been years since the last time i updated this blog..
so, what am i gonna write today ?

*say, i love youuu :p

and then, you know my little nephew seperti prince charming deh, di kejar2 cew melulu, padahal kan baru 5 tahun sahaja..
bukan dia lo yg kejar cew, dia yang di kejar cew, and so the lil girl kissed my lil nephew.. ahahaha so sweet XD
she really kissed him!!! im shocked for a while XD
and his grandma which is my aunt, told me that, even in the school bus, the girls fighting each other because they want to sit beside him.. ROFLMAO!

* i have a crush lately
* he is a good guy
* though a lil childish "sometimes"

and then, what else ?? ooh yeah, holiday is coming!! 2 months i think, and a half.. lols
where will i be this holiday ?? medan ? or ?? hope tak berjamur lah dimedan =.=" bisa gila rasa nya =.= libur 2 bulan, ouch!

and thennnn... my eyes udah sisa beberapa watt sahaja..

ahhhh.. g2g.. adioss :)

It's March!! already...

Yuhuuu, hello..
already pass the month of love which is February
know what im doing now ?
learning blogging, at ? visitek of course.. lalalala
awww, last night i learn how to make a website, today i learn how to make a blog..
what for tomorrow ?

well, honestly and truthfully, I'm so hungry right now, feed me!!
well, got to go.. talk later.. ciao.. lol

Something wrong

aw, i think there is something wrong with my blog..
it didnt show the 2010 archive, how come ? oh my god.
but i can find my 2010 posts in my daily category..
lah.. what's happening ?

Month of love... is it ?

well, hello guys...
i don't know what to write as usual
u know, its February know, people keep talking about valentine day...
i don't know what is so much special about it.
i think everyday could be valentine you know.
well, maybe because i have no boyfriend, then i think valentine is just the same like the other day.. its just ordinary. But this year's valentine day comes along with the chinese new year celebration.
well, of course the chinese new year is something special for me. including the cookies that will be serves in this occasion and including the "red pocket" thingie, lol.

u know, my auntie and her daughter and her grandson already move back to their own home. it's such a relief for me, since they stayed in my room, i think my room already turns into a sinking ship. and they already moved back since last friday, and know i didnt sleep in my own bed. i sleep in my mom and dad's room. why ? because idk why there is a lot of ants in my room and i dont know what are they doing there, or what they've did.
so i told ma maid to clean the bed and every single corner in my room, so i think i will move back to my own room the night before chinese new year. just to make sure everything already cleaned. and i dont need to worry about ants.

i dont know why, i hate ants so much.. i mean, they are small, then they are so solid. like they works together and etc. its so scary for me. well, u can say that i hate most insects except butterfly, i like am. and i hate SPIDERS so much. i am arachnophobia u know.
puz is birthday gonna come this friday, and i still dont know yet what kind of present that i will gift to her. may be.... well.. lets see..


heyyyy, did i told you guys, i wore a skirt ? hahaha.. i mean, not in the school. in my friend's birthday party, well.. let me upload it, hahaha...
wait wait wait..seeee, ugly ? or fit me ? hahaha... i think not so bad laa.

well, im having a class tomorrow, well.. its like a private school or something, just and additional class, its a computer lesson, gonna study computer stuff till this november. now im studying dream weaver. a lot of script to learn. and i cant remember all of them, well, kinda hard for me to remember something that i dont really want, but it doesnt mean that i didnt interested on dreamweaver, its a cool software to learn. and after that im going to have my mandarin class, nah... im interested with this class, so fun. hahaha
i think, i already did something wrong, i think im not supposed to take the english literature. it supposed to be mandarin literature. well... forget it. the rice has turned into mush. well

i think thats all for today, gotta go now, its 12.22am now, but still need to help momma, hahaha...
adiossssss :D
good night =)